Two lingering souls caught up in their own private struggles. Their voices are heard often in their own separate worlds that they share as you hear their thoughts, their despair, frustrations which embody both their minds and souls on several downward spirals and you wonder if they will ever rise above themselves and see the world , each other and those they encounter in a positive or real. McGeeee and Rebecca both have negative views on life. Both battle within their own demons, hates and lack the ability to just appreciate what they have. Rebecca and McGeeee are working on a story together and no matter how he tries she dies not care or want his voice heard or any help he suggests. The right to where they were supposed to go is tension and anger filled but what happens at the end will remain imbedded in your mind as the author describes what happens and your wonder what is true and what is false. They are married in the next story and have lost a child . The anger in both is expressed in different ways and how it’s dealt with shows you how he divorces himself from having real emotional outbursts by dismantling the nursery while she wants to keep sone part of her child alive with her. The ending presents a startling revelation and once again your wonder why Rebecca’s life takes a downward turn and if both tragic endings have been orchestrated and manipulated . Mceeee is a non-achiever in many ways and challenging himself and even accepting new horizons to better himself is not part of his outlook on life. His boss is going to chuck it in and offers him his post at a higher salary and no need to worry about the workload or pressures. His visions of himself are unique as he describes his physique, appearance and does not really have a realistic view of who or what he is or capable of. His response to his boss is quite revealing letting you know he had no sense of self, going aimlessly through life , the motions and no purpose or goals. Rebecca just wants to escape each situation she is in and yet like him has no true direction or goals. The next two stories you the reader will decide who’s speaking and the torments inflicted and described as we come to hypothesis 0 which is enlightening, and the speaker explains his/ her search for truth even if it meant finally paring me as I quiet. My infinite complex experience down to as dull an observation as: there is no ultimate truth leading us to realize this sounds like Rebecca. The character’s remorse about not finding religion and giving not shame and stating I want to speak the shame out of hiding. The solution: a pill leading us into Hypothesis 1 where the character describes her journey with pills and the road to her downfall. Throughout the book you wonder if it is the authors voice you are hearing through Mceeee and his lost love in Rebecca. Rebecca reveals her hate and distain for her mother and the secret she is taking to her grave. The funeral had many people all who disliked her and none with a kind word. Mceee’s voice is heard throughout the funeral as he thought that someone must have loved this woman or at least explain why nobody loved her and wondering why he or they would notice and consider him cold. He was bored and consoling Rebecca was not in the cards or needed nor would she care. This had nothing to do with him nor did he care to make it his problem. Her mother was dead and that was it. There were no children and in fact no one younger than his wife. The only sounds made were that of coughers, smokers and clearing of throats the coldness of the funeral would chill a room that was heated. When the funeral was over and the various silences were all over, when each one said or not said or paid respects or not, nobody cared about her that was clear. A cross above the other engravings. The cross above her mother’s was a mockery he said to the religious and the irreligious equally for the faith they placed in ghosts. At the end he expresses his wife that he knew little about her mother and then they drove back to the city in silence. The entire ride home you have to decide the inner secrets revealed, Rebecca’s lack of emotional caring and yet anger, but the last sentences let you know that deep down she might regret it all and all she feels and said. The final three chapters will reveal the underlying truth about Rebecca’s mother, her relationship with her bitter and the judgmental ways and words he expressed about his true perception of her. Millie only cared about Millie and undermining others, making her own brother feel insignificant gave her a sense of power as the final chapters focus on three definitions of motherhood. Rebecca leaves and Mceee receives the package of letters, postcards, pictures and more revealing a past that even his wife might not fully understand or be aware of just reading her brother’s words is chilling and mind-boggling. Condemnation of motherhood part one reveals her time with a lecturer and at the end a transition and enlightened. Family discord, jealousies and letters that revealed the disharmony that he member felt towards another in the chapter titled Condemnation of Motherhood and the final one Hatred of Motherhood focuses on her true relationship with her mother and Rebecca realized that the world is comprised of people that do bad things and sometimes good things. Her mother grew old, cynical and unhappy and her father was gone for years and she had to find new ways of accusing herself of having been terrible with him. Blaming herself for the faults and shortcomings of others and explaining her marriage. Telling her that the same anger and hate she feels for her she felt for her own mother. The final chapter will explain much more at the author reveals the truth about her mother and her brother and a family secret that destroyed more than Rebecca’s faith in her own self. Characters that are unique, hateful, unliked and yet you begin to feel some type of empathy at the end for her and for Mceee as you see the tragedy of their lives, the meaninglessness and the pitfalls they fell into not looking at the positives but always looking for the faults, the doom and the heartache inflicted on them by others and never moving past it. This is one book that each reader will come away with different answers to each chapter’s ending and you decide what you think is the ending to each chapter that has no real conclusion. The author really gives readers a lot to think about and it’s great for chapter and books discussions. The title encompasses it all as sometimes you think and wonder and the world is hard to fathom and understand and you learn the meaning of why thinking can mean the screaming of the soul. Fran Lewis: Just reviews ~ Just Reviews, Review