Rating: 4 out of 5 stars. Nicky was a police office until a car accident ended her career. Since that was how she identified, she felt her life had no purpose. The author writes about her experience with chronic illness, fraud, and legal troubles. She had an abusive childhood, a bad relationship with “Dick,” and a chronic illness. I love how she describes living with chronic illness symptoms as body bingo. Every day you wonder what symptom is going to hurt or not work. Some days, she wallows and curses, but other days she triumphs. She works with the spirits and angels for guidance and has discussions with her deceased father. She mentioned one of my favorite movies, “Sliding Doors,” where one quick act/decision can change the course of your life. The diary she writes is called a soul diary. I think she is brave to share it. It shows her vulnerabilities but also her courage. She has had a difficult life but has finally made the best of it. ~ Dawn Thomas (Reviewer), NetGalley

Devon-based psychic; Nicky Alans book is one of surviving a chronic illness. Alan had a two-decade career as a major investigation bereavement trained detective. Her very personal account tells of her struggle with depression and injustice and with the help of angels and spirit guides in the midst of a variety of psychical phenomena. It offers a message of hope if you’re in need of one. Fortean Times FT415/ Feb 2022 ~ Fortean Times, Review

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars. This book is a real life story from a famous psychic called Nicky Alan. Nicky has M.E. and Fibromyalgia and in her book, which is like a diary, she explains what it was like for her when she was going through bad times while she was very sick with these illnesses. Reading her book and diary, I felt very sad for her, but I was also happy to see her strength and bravery and how she fought through every setback to overcome the bad times and set herself on the right path again. I was happy to read that Nicky is back at work again, even though she still has some illnesses. The main thing is that she is still fighting and she is still helping people through her spiritual work. She is an inspiration and a light in this world. I have looked her up on youtube since reading her book and it was nice to see her there chatting and doing her work. I am also a spiritual person so I am very interested in her work. ~ Catherine Craig (Angelic Light) (Reviewer), NetGalley

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars..............Nicky Alan has made me realise that being a shouty, sweary type whose faith sometimes falters is no barrier to a connection with the other side or the angelic realm. Having read and enjoyed her book I will now continue to consult the cards, persevere with my meditation practice and keep an open mind (and eye) with regards to synchronicity. I am grateful that Ms Alan felt guided to sharing her experiences, her lowest moments through to her euphoric times, in such a readable and relatable manner. ~ ANNE ROGERS (Reviewer), NetGalley

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars. As a fellow M.E/Fibro sufferer, I was immediately attracted to the title of this book. Most of us who are dealing with a chronic illness of any kind come to learn that finding others going through the same thing is both healing and affirming. Too many of us face the misunderstanding and downright ignorant attitudes of others, and so hearing our thoughts and experiences spoken by another helps us to feel less alone. In this Nicky Alan comes up trumps, as she shares the ups and downs of life with this condition, often with startling honesty. She lays all bare, especially in the excerpts from her soul journals, ensuring that the reader sees just how she felt in the moment, rather than having things softened by hindsight..............What I loved most about the book, however, are the spiritual threads woven throughout it. As I read the book I felt the call to reconnect with the Angels after many, many years of shutting them out. Nicky doesn't offer a "do this and you will be healed" attitude, as even when things panned out exactly as the Angels and her Guides and spirit family had suggested they might, she still had to face numerous battles. But what she does promise is that if you open up to the possibility of something better then amazing things can and do happen.........If you are struggling with any kind of chronic illness and have even the slightest openness to the spiritual realms, this book is well worth a read.. ~ Amanda Shortman (Reviewer), NetGalley

I really got into the book from the start and couldn’t stop reading it till finished! The depths you go into , holding nothing back makes it like reading the story about a friend, feeling your pain and rejoicing with you in your accomplishments. How on earth you can go through so much but not stop believing in your Angels and Spirit family to get you through it all and trusting the signs sent from them, when most would have stayed in bed and given up . The chapters are short and to the point but I also liked the passages from your Soul Journal interspersed with the story. It will inspire and encourage people from all walks of life, healthy or living with chronic illness , to believe in and follow their dreams . It certainly has inspired me ! ~ Annie Harmstone, Radio host and Psychic Medium, Email

Wow! I have just finished reading Nicky ‘s new book. I can honestly say that I just couldn’t put it down. I cried and laughed so much throughout. Love the fact she says it how it is! This was refreshing and real! Her faith was tested to the limit but she still managed to get through it. Such amazing knowledge and so inspiring! And the synchronicity’s were unbelievable! All in all a brilliant read! ~ Helen Wright , Pain Relief Practitioner

What a ride! I’ve experienced every emotion possible reading this book. Firstly an immediate identification of suffering with this invisible illness and the honest and no holds barred portrayal of desperation it brings to your door. The grief and relief that somersaults through the journey is described. If you want unbelievable drama sprinkled with miracles, undeniable proof that everything happens for a reason, this is the book for you. That having courage and reason to trust the process with faith and patience will set you free. This will always remind me never to give up, to sit in my own truth and not to be silent. ~ Anne Lloyd, Holistic Practitioner

An autobiography that will take you on a journey of tears, inspiration and hope. I could not put this book down, it’s so much more than a diary of Nicky’s life. If you are going through a tough time or a bereavement this book will help you get through the dark days and give you comfort in knowing your loved ones are always by your side. I always thought a gifted psychic would have a rosy life with 24 hour communication to those upstairs! Well how wrong was I! At times I found it shocking to learn what Nicky has gone through. From a tough childhood, bereavement, bankruptcy and a debilitating illness she is still standing, remains positive and has utter faith that this is her journey. This book made me realise that angels and spirit guides are always by your side, you just have to call them in. A corker of a book and one I will pick up again when I am having a tough time! ~ Annie Conlon, TV Producer

Recently I have had the absolute special privilege of reading Nicky Alan’s book M.E. MYSELF AND I: DIARY OF A PSYCHIC. Not only is this masterpiece a hugely potential bestseller, it is the life of a very special lady laid bare with raw emotion and honesty for all to see. Nothing is held back and her style of writing packs one almighty punch in the solar plexus and heart ! From start to finish I was taken on her incredible journey of happiness, success, positivity and guidance to heartbreaking sadness, illness, depression and loneliness. One of the many things that really shines is her spirituality. A very powerful channel for our beautiful spirit realms. Nicky has given everything of herself in this book. I have laughed and sobbed in equal measures. A definite page turner and I highly recommend it. ~ Joanne Barry, Angel Reiki Master

Speaking from her heart, Nicky reaches out to each one of us with compassion and love as she openly and honestly shares her most intimate life details through such an amazing course of events. This book is a refreshing and real story. Horrific, but real. Her sufferings have made her the strong, compassionate woman she now is, a shining light, a beacon of hope to the world. This is her unique contribution to humanity, timeless in its strong message of hope to us all. You will not be able to put this book down, guaranteed! ~ Eileen McCourt, author

This book will be great for people and their families that are suffering from M.E., fibromyalgia, depression or any other debilitating illness but will also appeal to others whether they are spiritually minded or not. Nicky's connection with spirit and the angels and the messages she receives will astound you. As a retired police detective she always asks for "evidence" that what she is being told is true. This book tells the story of her life, peaking as a successful celebrity psychic medium. This all came crashing down after a road accident left her with M.E./fibromyalgia. This illness led her to losing everything she owned including her home and she was left feeling completely worthless and suicidal. It tells how her connection with Spirit and the Angels helped her heal herself and by sharing this experience she hopes that this story will help others. ~ Lindsey Cox, retired police officer